There is a saying here in Barbados, "Hard ears yuh don hear, Own way you will feel,".
It means that if you don't listen and do what you want, eventually it will catch up to you and you will experience discomfort. For me, the person I most didn't listen to is myself and secondarily voices of my friends.
I don't mentally have the strength to continue on the way I am going. I love crafting and I want to do it more. I want to pull it from the distant corners of my mind and spend my time thinking of ways to use the materials and tools I have on hand to make myself happy.
I want to make things that I am proud of, and most of all feel the freedom that creation can bring!
To build a fortress around myself would only stunt my own growth, so instead, I want to move into a castle of dreams.